Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Emo Blog
I hate commercialization. Everyone has become a product. Original thought is dieing. We no longer take risks. Innovation is over. Nothing can be done unless it has been shown to work before. What happened to the adventurous spirit? What happen to unique thought? What happened...
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
ultra nerdy but I like it
Signs that you may be a nuclear engineer...
1. You wonder about the pressure drop across the sprinkler in the sprinkler system of your office.
2. You think of ways to improve your water heater that include fuel rods, natural circulation, and steam generators.
3. You argue with your friends about the economy, neutron economy that is.
4. You speak in acronyms.
5. Things like "Im going to scram your reactor" are considered dirty.
6. You took Thermodynamics II for the "easy" A.
7. People look at you with a blank stare after they ask what your major was.
8. 92 and 235 have a special place in your heart.
9. You watch water boil to note the time until nucleate boil has occurred and finally when DNB has occurred you through your pasta in.
10. You love Yellow Cake!
1. You wonder about the pressure drop across the sprinkler in the sprinkler system of your office.
2. You think of ways to improve your water heater that include fuel rods, natural circulation, and steam generators.
3. You argue with your friends about the economy, neutron economy that is.
4. You speak in acronyms.
5. Things like "Im going to scram your reactor" are considered dirty.
6. You took Thermodynamics II for the "easy" A.
7. People look at you with a blank stare after they ask what your major was.
8. 92 and 235 have a special place in your heart.
9. You watch water boil to note the time until nucleate boil has occurred and finally when DNB has occurred you through your pasta in.
10. You love Yellow Cake!
Monday, March 2, 2009
Snow and reflections
Kind of a crazy day today. SNOW!! The most snow that I have seen in NC since ive been here. Work was delayed till 9:30, but I found this after I scraped the ice off of my car at 7:00. The extra two hrs of sleep was much appreciated, Considering I was running on about 3 hrs at that point. Then when I got home my love seat, end tables and ottoman were delivered so now I am sitting comfy writing this out.
This portion may be ramblings, lets hope a coherent thought appears. I write for an audience of one, myself. I thought I could be stronger, I thought I had grown up, but the pain is still there. Confusion, distraught, dejection, questions, anger, are all swirling in my head. I went from cloud 9 to ground zero and I put it all on myself. I thought I would be ready for the inevitable, but I was wrong. It is too soon but there is nothing I can do nor should do to stop it. I hope for the best outcome, I hope that she is happy. I truly care, and whats best for her is all I ask. I am young and have never been able to control my emotions well. I love to love but I cant understand when I am not loved back in the same way I feel. I want everyone to be happy. But unfortunately a paradox arises when it comes to my happiness and that of someone else. Deep down if I love you, your happiness means more to me then my own. I want her to move on, I need her to, It is the only I believe she will be able to forgive me and keep whats left of the relationship strong. It is times like these when my confidence is shattered. I put forth my best effort and fail. I see where I have failed and become pissed at my self. I have a very hard time unleashing frustration and anger, only time helps, so now I prepare myself for my own self-loathing that is sure to happen.
I thought I was past this, I thought I had put it behind me. I was happy to hear forgiveness I believed it was the final piece of the puzzle and we could both be happy in our respective ways. I was not prepared, though I should have been. It may be the solitude I come home to, It may because I feel I cannot be consoled by my friends, the unfamiliar surroundings, or a lovely cocktail of all three. I know this is probably the best outcome, The road may have been rocky but journey was incredible.
This portion may be ramblings, lets hope a coherent thought appears. I write for an audience of one, myself. I thought I could be stronger, I thought I had grown up, but the pain is still there. Confusion, distraught, dejection, questions, anger, are all swirling in my head. I went from cloud 9 to ground zero and I put it all on myself. I thought I would be ready for the inevitable, but I was wrong. It is too soon but there is nothing I can do nor should do to stop it. I hope for the best outcome, I hope that she is happy. I truly care, and whats best for her is all I ask. I am young and have never been able to control my emotions well. I love to love but I cant understand when I am not loved back in the same way I feel. I want everyone to be happy. But unfortunately a paradox arises when it comes to my happiness and that of someone else. Deep down if I love you, your happiness means more to me then my own. I want her to move on, I need her to, It is the only I believe she will be able to forgive me and keep whats left of the relationship strong. It is times like these when my confidence is shattered. I put forth my best effort and fail. I see where I have failed and become pissed at my self. I have a very hard time unleashing frustration and anger, only time helps, so now I prepare myself for my own self-loathing that is sure to happen.
I thought I was past this, I thought I had put it behind me. I was happy to hear forgiveness I believed it was the final piece of the puzzle and we could both be happy in our respective ways. I was not prepared, though I should have been. It may be the solitude I come home to, It may because I feel I cannot be consoled by my friends, the unfamiliar surroundings, or a lovely cocktail of all three. I know this is probably the best outcome, The road may have been rocky but journey was incredible.
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